Day 5/18
Today, I cried terribly, again.
I shall make this the last night
crying this terrible.
Phone batt lessen, No charger.
3bars to last 13days?
Its simply impossible,
If used on talking.
Only messaging allows.
Another 0.5kg lost.
I buy a small sponge cake to eat at work.
I can't simple go another day without food right.
I somehow force the small sponge cake down my throat.
I swallow each mouth with water.
Still, 5days since I tasted rice.
Fyp is so much a pressure to me.
Why did god need to load me with
2 major pressure at once?
Emotionally and physically, I can't bare it anymore.
I know I can't continue this way.
I told love to not blame me if I couldn't
bare till 24th June.
I misses too much, I love too much, I need too much.
Too much that I know I should stop.
fyp pressuring me much,
No your assurance here, I break down everyday.
I have no confidence anymore,
that I can bare all this any longer.
Take lots of care, Love.
You got to be healthy.
Even if I collapse,
I only wish for you to be all healthy and happy.
15more days.