Day 4/18
I did alittle-slight better than yesterday.
I did cry, still.
Fyp was a die hard one.
I sure to die hard on it.
Stress max, burden only.
Met up with maine and amelia.
great, at least I get to rant out alittle more (:
Friends lessen my breathless-ness on missing you.
I hear your voice today,
I feel you further apart from me.
I'm afraid, I need you too much.
I wished, I could swim to tekong.
I hope this breathless-ness could leave me.
I hate being breathless while missing you.
You know its torturing.
its been 4days, only.
and I've alr lost 2kg.
If this continues, I guess I might faint anytime.
I tried eating, but it doesn't seems to work.
I just don have the appetite.
I hate myself for not eating.
I wanna gain back those weight.
I don want to keep losing weight.
Sorry love, I tried my best to be strong.
I really tried. But you know, its really hard.
I came to realised, You're the reason I breathe.
Knowing you arent here with me, I'm lost.
Very much lost.
Love, I tried to control my tears,
but it still flows like free.
Its ok, I'll do better with each day passes right?
I misses you so much!
14more days! :'(